You present clear skies That upon closer observation Are riddled with fog and clouds This static that occurs Little jolts deep in my guts It's my fault The skies were clear after all
The sun shines And the days are warm When you smile at me and laugh Everything is going well
How many times will it take For me to learn that it never lasts? That the gust of guilt and shame As the winds stir up again Will always return?
How many times will I ignore The cool changes The subtle remarks That wear away the deepest parts of myself?
Each time I realise The clouds in my mind are yours I will push back I will get stronger I won't be blown around again.