My sister was never good at school.
She never had straight As, or did her homework.
Our parents gave up on her, not knowing.
Things would only go downhill from that.
She pushes everyone away,
She throws up in the middle of the night.
Pretends its food poisoning.
She goes to therapy two times a week.
Says its helping,
I knew it wasn't.
She gets diagnosed with depression.
Calls it a hoax
My chest began to close,
My heart stopped.
"The hospital" I hear them say.
She screams and cries from inside the room.
My heart starts pounding faster.
She gets in the car, still crying.
Faster.
We arrive and they bring her in.
Faster.
We get back home.
Faster.
It was pumping so fast I felt I couldn't breathe.
Walking into her room,
Seeing all her stuffed animals.
I could feel them staring at me,
Why didn't I help her?
Why didn't I let her know I was there?
Why did I argue with her?
My heart slowed.
My breath went to normal.
Why did I even write this?