Mar 21
The final goodbye
Its not a surprise
I pushed so hard
Saw it happening
Couldn't stop it
Loathed myself for it
The final goodbye
I thought would hurt more
But it feels self inflicted
Which took the sting
I already felt empty
Now it feels complete
The final goodbye
They say it's sweet sorrow
Why did I make it bitter
And the worst part is knowing
If I wound up back there
I couldn't help it a second time
- Ludden Soss
Its not a surprise
I pushed so hard
Saw it happening
Couldn't stop it
Loathed myself for it
The final goodbye
I thought would hurt more
But it feels self inflicted
Which took the sting
I already felt empty
Now it feels complete
The final goodbye
They say it's sweet sorrow
Why did I make it bitter
And the worst part is knowing
If I wound up back there
I couldn't help it a second time
- Ludden Soss
This past week has been the crescendo to one of the worst two month stretches I've ever experienced. Tragic loss, a relationship sliding away, health issues, and then the final gut punch of that relationship ending with a thud. I hope this poem that I wrote tonight after the final nail was put in the coffin will be the closure we all look for when great things end.
