i tried writing an apology but the words wouldn't come it's not that i'm not Sorry no i've been scratching at my skin, tearing at the fabric of my body hoping to find a better human underneath one who can treat you right
i know i ****** up.
but any words of reconciliation i tried to conjure up refused to collaborate and all i was left with was a blank white page whiter than my knuckles when i cry (you see, i have to squeeze tight to make sure i don't fall apart)
what i'd like to tell you is, i love you it won't happen again i'll always be good to you and never so selfish it's all going to be okay.
but i can't even as i'm writing these words this blanket is getting heavier and i am shrinking and i do not have control
so i cannot make a promise i cannot keep and i cannot tell a man what i cannot foresee so darling
instead of "i'm Sorry" you'll just have to accept "please"
begging for forgiveness at your feet is much more in my comfort zone anyway this much i can do for you this is how i show i care