How do you know how to feel? When your mind's split in two And you try to be real But don't know who's you.
How do you know what to think? When your head contradicts And you try not to sink But you don't know the tricks.
How do you know what to say? When your heart breaks inside And you try to be sane But feel like you've died.
I wrote this poem when I started to realize the heavy effects masking had on my self-perception. When I started braking down the parts of me I had kept visible for my survival, it felt like I was two different people.