This feeling almost embedded into my brain
here you go again...
silence fills this house
almost deafening, i feel like screaming
walking past without a notice
your simply afraid? or am i not enough?
not suited to your picture perfect frame?
a crack in your overbearing fence
am i not yours to claim?

Ive always been my father's daughter...

He uses that against me
no matter how good he tries to cover it
he'll always despise me for your actions
for the fact that i'm his daughter
theres always two sides to the war
but in my case...
this war will forever be one-sided
a fight I'm growing tired of fighting

Ive always been my father's daughter...

my face must be a sickening sight for you
a friendly reminder of what once was yours
but isn't anymore...
ive grown to hate it...
ive grown to hate looking like him
because of you.
the odd one out of three
your hardest child?
and his only.

Ive always been my father's daughter...

How annoying it must be, to see him in me
a mirror of my father
your nit-picking daughter
filled with flaws
that you seem to enjoy calling out?
"your just like your father"
"you look just like your father"
but with every one of your "compliments"
comes an insult
"i don't know why your like that"
"your father wasn't like this"
"if your father was here..."
he's not.

Ive always been my father's daughter...

your academic star, is failing
but you put that aside
i'm a mockery to your name
you hide me away from the spotlight
scared of the comments you may get
because of me?
i'm your disappointment...
and you hate that.

Ive always been my father's daughter...

its not your fault
and it never is
so ill take it all
to make you happy
ill burn myself for your sake
not mine
ill fulfil your dream
and disregard my own
ill make you proud...
but at what cost?
my mental health? my general health?
they're just a twig in the system
ill learn to deal with it...
but in all reality

i need my father.
and not you...my "mother"