so much happened in my life
sometimes I just sit here and cry
I think everything that has happened
I wish it didn't leave me so saddened
I remember how I used to be so alone
that house was never truly a home
all the lies and screaming
the pain and thoughts of fleeting
so many situations where I was left so helpless
I couldn't do anything but sit there and cry
I knew too much of what was going on
it took away my innocence
and the child within me went with it
after that happiness got up left
and sadness took a seat for a long while
so long I sat in a cage in my mind
constantly asking questions like why
why me?
why her?
why do we have so much hurt?
so much pain inside and nowhere to go
we must sit here and listen to all the screaming
to all the lies
this was the start of my sleepless nights
the nights where I stayed awake just to cry
to finally let out the quiet sobs I had been holding in all day
I wish someone would have hugged me tight
I wish someone would have paid attention all those times
maybe if they did they would notice the signs
the signs of my depression
my suicidal thoughts
the start of the self harming they could have put to a stop
my life has put me in an endless battle with depression
it's a war inside my mind
oh but I have been granted so many great people in my life
because of them I can feel free
I can finally be happy
I can finally let out the breath I'd been holding in so long
in front of them I feel comfortable singing my songs
In their eyes I see no judgement
only a soft console I've been craving since I was a child
yes my life has brought so much pain
but through it I have gained
I've gained an understanding of this world
I've gained a family that was once not mine
I've gained this amazing life
so much had happened but it led me to here
this place I was meant to be
I hate my life but I also love it
in the end I have to admit
it's a nice little life of mine