so much happened in my life sometimes I just sit here and cry I think everything that has happened I wish it didn't leave me so saddened I remember how I used to be so alone that house was never truly a home all the lies and screaming the pain and thoughts of fleeting so many situations where I was left so helpless I couldn't do anything but sit there and cry I knew too much of what was going on it took away my innocence and the child within me went with it after that happiness got up left and sadness took a seat for a long while so long I sat in a cage in my mind constantly asking questions like why why me? why her? why do we have so much hurt? so much pain inside and nowhere to go we must sit here and listen to all the screaming to all the lies this was the start of my sleepless nights the nights where I stayed awake just to cry to finally let out the quiet sobs I had been holding in all day I wish someone would have hugged me tight I wish someone would have paid attention all those times maybe if they did they would notice the signs the signs of my depression my suicidal thoughts the start of the self harming they could have put to a stop my life has put me in an endless battle with depression it's a war inside my mind oh but I have been granted so many great people in my life because of them I can feel free I can finally be happy I can finally let out the breath I'd been holding in so long in front of them I feel comfortable singing my songs In their eyes I see no judgement only a soft console I've been craving since I was a child yes my life has brought so much pain but through it I have gained I've gained an understanding of this world I've gained a family that was once not mine I've gained this amazing life so much had happened but it led me to here this place I was meant to be I hate my life but I also love it in the end I have to admit it's a nice little life of mine