I'm always going to say I don't need help I'm always going to cry by myself I'll always push you away when I need you the most When I need a hug I'll hug myself It's the way I'm programmed The way I grew up I tell myself I don't give a **** But I care about the child that had no one The one that grew up way too fast She is me and I am her I'm still struggling to make her proud So I'll just tell her that I have friends now I have people who care I have people I can run to But most of the time I won't I'll cry all alone just like before I'll sob and wish for more I'll wish that all this pain would go away And I'll hope that one day I can make the kid in me proud That I can let her out That I'll ask for help more often And admit when I can do it alone But for now I won't ask for help But I'll always go to the people I call my home The people who are not blood but family They understand the most And when I need them they'll be close They'll hug me when I cry Pick me up when I fall They all love me And I love them all