The really weird thing
About leaving you
Was

I still missed you

Every second
Of every day
I thought of you constantly

I'd wake up
And there you would be

I'd brush my teeth
And your eyes would be
In the mirror
Looking back at me

I'd forget my keys
And you'd remind me
Along the way

You were with me
Oh god,
You were with me so

I couldn't get you away from me
You were in my skin
Embedded in my organs

I walked away from you

But I still missed you
Oh god,
Did I miss you

I'd almost cracked
So many nights
Almost crawled right back
Into your
Track ridden arms

Almost.

I almost killed myself once too.
So what does that tell you
About all that ****
I almost do?

I left you
But I swear
You never left me


Not once.