My self-worth is zero,
negative self-esteem
I just want to be
loved in all my dreams
fast to crinkle inward,
curl inside a ball,
life has it's ups and downs
and all I do is fall.

I've been at rock bottom
the bottom of the sea,
for what appears to me
like an eternity.

I slowly crawl upwards
while the tears roll down my eyes
knowing that I'm worthless
in and out of demise.

I can't take my life
why do I even try?
I still can't figure out
why the hell I'm alive

Life is not for living,
you just have to survive.
Seeking out the truth
whilst surrounded by lies.

Piling up the stress,
maybe I'm depressed
I feel heavy and dense,
emotions unexpressed.

I can not cry for help
because nowhere is safe
my own mind is a landfield
and people are a maze.