Bright eyed Kinda shy Always kind I was 11 at the time Afraid out of my mind I literally felt like I was high
We played truth or dare I never understood truth or dare Truth: are you hyper aware Did butterflies in your stomach pop out of thin air I'm scared Dare Kiss me I only 11, you see But please I wonder what would mean How would it seem If we became a thing
Fast forward 2 years I am among high school peers And you have yet to disappear Still shy Still kind Now mine Yet your eyes are not as bright Being with you is a constant fight In hindsight I should have recognized the signs Isn't it my job to read between the lines Try to minimize the hard times I tried
The girl i love is broken
Scars buried deep in the wrists I kiss Have you changed Or did i just dismiss this Distracted by the pure bliss That comes with you
You are still kind But no longer shy Just numb Totally succumb To your own gloomy slum I have become Your drug
The girl i love is an addict
People are your drug And you build a tolerance quickly Once you begin to feel something You leave I have learned to cherish the inbetween
In between The hi And bye You lie constantly Obsessively Like you can't get enough of me But i know you know The truth I mean nothing to you
The girl i love is dead
Her kindness Shyness Bright eyed Perfect little mess Reduced to a pile of letters sitting on my desk
Long gone are the christmas movies In early november Do you even remember Cuddled up In my clothes Do you even know What it meant to me
You were my world
I fell in love with a girl who fell in love with her depression I fell in love with a girl who no longer exists
Now I float aimlessly Through time and space Hoping to tether onto something Knowing nothing will ever compare