I wish i could explain it all,
BUT I BARELY UNDERSTAND IT MYSELF
Pple say I'm crazy and i don't listen
Don't throw me away because you think im broken
Im afraid that everyone will leave me
I push you away because i can't stand to be the one left behind
It doesn't matter how you treat me,
I'll do anything if you just stay,
To me your perfect ,But i hate you
Do you still love me?
I don't know who I am,
I used to be someone else
But that person is gone,
I don't want to become the person i am,
I do things im ashamed of ,
You tell me to control my urges.
Thats all i do is TRY,
I wish i could stop,
The pain is unbearable ,
I don't want to die, i just don't want to exist
I know you don't understand
Hurting myself eases the pain,
You say im not trying, im better than that,
I feel so many emotions all at once,
Most of the time im in darkness or i feel nothing at all

I have a void that i cant fill....
Im a hollow shell...

I lash out at people around me...
Say things i dont mean,
I hurt you before you can hurt me
I don't know my own mind from reality
Lost in confusion
I just want to run away
But in the end it finds me
I'm scared, I'm sorry i hurt you
Im not a  monster,
Please don't give up on me