I drown it out
taste the blood in my mouth
missed the truth but
maybe I was just missing you
hold a hand in the dark
hold my breath when it starts
don’t know what’s real
or what I’m going through
because I’m happy sometimes
but then I go to sleep and close my eyes
and it all starts over and over and over again
and replays the pain and the things I’d forget
and the memories are killing me
a lifetime of regret
and a message that you’ll never hear