Ever so I cry tears of a tiger when I feel lost in myself. Ever so I cry tears of a tiger when I feel my heart is fragile. I wear this chain here to distract you from the blatant sadness written on my face. I could never get out of my way. Sometimes I think I found a way out, yet I still get ****** in the tide. No, I can't sit still in all this hate and abundance… I’ll get buried. So quiet… I stay quiet, I spent half of the night trying to cope with the quiet. The silence is almost deafening. It’s like I’m In my own coma… unresponsive I am. They said it’s all in my head, yet they still wonder why I bottle it all up. I can't hide myself because I’m already dead inside. So here I sit, looking dead in the eye of the devil. I can't move… unresponsive I am. Sometimes I feel it’s a lonely road and they don’t care about what you know. So I try… try to find light in this beautiful sea. But yet I’m drowning in the same tub I learned how to swim in. I know after all this rumble I should be bulletproof by now, but I took one for the team to the heart. I’m a hard case they can't unlock… It’s like people are talking to me like it doesn’t hurt them at all. Maybe I’ve always been destined to end up in this place I lie in. I fear time is running out, seconds waste away while I suffer your wrath on me. I could swear I’ve given up on me… I think I’m too deep. I’m up all night because I’m falling. I’m a dog chasing cars. I’m a victim whose story hasn’t been told. Behind me lies a broken heart that takes timeless years to fix. I say “Living well is the best revenge” I SAY “Having self-humanity is powerful”. Never shall I forget the flames that consumed my faith forever… It looks my reflection is laughing at me. I need mercy on my soul ‘fore I am mistaken for thinking I am doing the right thing. And now… I am left with your echo. Ever so often, I hear whispered in my ear “You know you’re not leaving here alive”. They won’t let me go. So… ever so I cry tears of a tiger. Ever so I cry.
This first-person view poem goes over what it is like for me to go through depression. My goal for this poem is to be able to relate to other people who feel the same way, especially these days where the depression rate is high.