I have lost all sense of feeling
my feet cannot even brush the ground
the wind no longer sweeps across my face
all my pain is encased in a shell of numbness
harvesting

as my blood drips down my skin
I do no feel a thing

as these drugs are fermented inside my body
I stop trying

as my nails are dug into the flesh of another
I sense nothing

so I stare blankly
while these bones cry out around me
I am waiting
waiting for it all to be made known
contemplating how I shall try to break the shell next

but I am searching for answers in my mind
or the unending black hole known as such

my only emotion: lost
will I finally succeed before I **** myself?