The storm of blame circulates,
“It’s his fault.”
She tells herself,
Trying to make it hurt less.
But she knows—
She hurt him too.

Her mind was a wildfire,
burning everything in its path.
Her pain rained down on him,
and though he tried to hold her steady,
she let herself drown,
refusing his hand.

He hated how little she cared for herself.
Hated watching her spiral,
helpless to stop the fall.
She swallows the guilt like it’s the last meal on earth,
fills the emptiness with it,
chokes on the weight of everything she did wrong.

When she tells others about it,
they all take her side.
It doesn’t feel right.
They didn’t see the pain in his eyes
when he saw through her mask,
when he realized he couldn’t fix what was breaking inside her.

She still feels his presence
shaping the choices she makes.
He wanted to save her.
She tried to let him.
She wasn’t fast enough.

If she could rewind, erase her mistakes,
she’d never have let him step into her storm.
She wishes she’d never met him,
wishes she never put him in a place
where he had to choose between himself and her.

She pulled the thread that unraveled them,
took the final step that ended it all.
And he—
He didn't fight it.
Didn’t argue.
Didn’t beg her to stay.

She wanted him to stop her,
to tell her they could still make it,
that he wasn’t ready to let go.
But in his eyes, she saw the truth—
He needed it to end too.

It’s not his fault.
Or maybe it is.
Or maybe it’s hers.

She’s still spinning in circles,
a constant rollercoaster,
trying to get off this ride,
wondering if she’ll ever find solid ground again.

Twists
and
turns.