You are toxic.
You hate yourself
People scramble to tell you that you shouldn’t
That you are amazing

The only truth is that
You.
Are.
Toxic.

You have built so many lies around yourself
To keep yourself safe
Do you know what you are?

You are a pathological liar
You write the script
You are the creator of your own hell.
You hate that you do it,
You can’t stop,
You won’t.

Gagged for so many years,
You were scared of what twisted thing would come out
You should have kept your voice locked away.

Bottle things up till you explode
Switch the formula for every person.
Releasing an over processed chemical you call the truth

You mirror others
Pay close attention to them
Learn what kind of person they are
Some call you thoughtful
You are spinning your webs of lies.

The best lie has a bit of the truth
You can’t tell the difference
You end up hurting those you love.
In turn hurt yourself to make it equal
That just hurts them back

It is an endless cycle of torture
You are your hell.

When someone confronts you
You rage.
Scream at them for seeing the true you
Tell them about all the things you have done for them-
How much you have helped them
Careful to cut out the ugly parts
Others back you up
They haven’t met the true you.

You are a double edged sword
Both the sweetest drink-
And most toxic poison.

You would never choose yourself
You always knew people would leave
You hurt them too much
You still wish they stayed.