I wont be able to sleep again.
my mind wont settle down.
my heart wont give up.
but im trying my hardest.
my hardest not to forget you,
but my hardest to to get used to this.
Im all messed up.
and i dont know how to fix it.
i am not even sure if i want to fix it
to be honest,
the pain, is becoming my new home.
its what keeps me going everyday,
but it is also,
the thing that slows me down.
makes me stop with blank stares.