Stayed up all night,
In dark and avoiding any light.
Now the feelings I'm trying to hide
Are killing me inside.

I have so much to say,
Yet nothing to say.
I want you back so bad,
And all the guilt makes me sad.

I know I have changed,
But it makes me so stressed,
'Cause I know I'm a bad person,
But I'm still trying my best.

I fear I’ll hurt you again.
My heart craves you, my mind in vain.
This really is the worst pain.
These tears feel like the best rain.

Even if I can’t do this anymore,
I’ll still let you go,
Because you deserve more,
More than my heart knows.

You told me to stop this feeling of guilt,
But I miss you so much,
And I can't stop feeling like ****,
Because I hate me so much.

Ew. Like seriously, ew.
This is not even new,
That I broke someone's heart
Before things could even start.

Tomorrow’s my exam.
It’s my favorite subject,
But I can’t focus on anything,
When depression has me wrecked.

I didn’t stop crying once.
Couldn’t, 'cause my feelings aren’t fake.
When I smiled, it was a mask,
'Cause I love you, and this pain I can’t take.

I love you more than I love myself,
And I broke your trust like someone did to mine.
You told me not to do things to myself,
But all I want is you to love me for a second time.

But it's not possible to love someone who's bad,
Someone who failed to be anything,
And lost everything they had.
You said you were gonna talk to me,
But didn't look at me even once today.

I know this won’t happen again.
The talks, the love, the words we’d send.
I shared my secrets before we were friends,
But now I keep your words with me, till the end.

I can’t focus on my studies.
My mind’s trapped in this mess.
You’re an angel, I’m the devil,
You’re heaven, I’m hell-nothing less.

I don't know what to do.
Leaving me is good for you,
And I want you to be happy,
Even if it takes mine away.

For me, you are the best,
And I don't care about the rest.
I'm a useless piece of waste,
But you were always there at my lowest.