Oct 2013
There are days I want to stay and days I want to go
Then there are days my heart hurts so bad I pace to and fro
I don’t want to eat; I toss and turn cause I can’t sleep
Wondering if you are faithful to me; I pray, I think, I weep
Sometimes my heart tells me yes, then other times it’s a definite no
You tell me I am the only one in your life, but I guess I will never know
All these questions floating through my mind – alone, no one to help me
Do I trust, do I leave, do I love, do I believe…
Fears surround what I should do – afraid of making the wrong choice
Loud emotions screaming through my mind – confused by all the noise
What happened to our “forever” – I ask through tears in a shaky voice
Friends have little advice to offer except “girl you know boys will be boys”
Been here before, seen these signs and refuse to travel this same road
“It’s different now, trust me, I have changed, I promise.” All lies that I am told
Yet the idiot inside me still believes because I’m gullible and so in love
So I accept the blame for the position I’m in, no more complaining I’ve had enough
No more waiting around for my eyes to dry from the tears I cried all night
I will pick up the pieces and mend my heart cause I am going to be alright
No more listening to lies and fake alibis saying that you had to work late
Good women like me are hard to find and for your love I can no longer wait
No more wishing I had your love or your arms around me at night
No more feeling lonely, stressed and depressed from all of our senseless fights
No more sacrificing and accepting less just to hold on to you
And despite my fears No more living here, I found a house on Park Avenue
I know my worth, I know who I am, I know I deserve to be happy
So I am leaving you to start a new life and this time I’ll focus on me
I may shed a tear for each and every year I wasted dealing with you
But with each passing day I will smile and say “I’m stronger and I will make it through”
Through the tears, through the hurt, through the lies and deceit
I will rise ‘cause no weapon shall prosper against me
Through Christ I can do all things so I’ll keep my faith steady
Knowing one day God will lead me to my handsome prince to marry
I will stand, I will heal, and even learn to love and trust again when I am ready
He will love me passionately, kiss me softly and live to see me smile
He will adore me and not ignore me all because of my **** style
Until that time, I will happily spend my time loving myself first
I am proud to say that I have moved out now because I know my own self worth
WRITTEN BY LATOYA TAYLOR
Then there are days my heart hurts so bad I pace to and fro
I don’t want to eat; I toss and turn cause I can’t sleep
Wondering if you are faithful to me; I pray, I think, I weep
Sometimes my heart tells me yes, then other times it’s a definite no
You tell me I am the only one in your life, but I guess I will never know
All these questions floating through my mind – alone, no one to help me
Do I trust, do I leave, do I love, do I believe…
Fears surround what I should do – afraid of making the wrong choice
Loud emotions screaming through my mind – confused by all the noise
What happened to our “forever” – I ask through tears in a shaky voice
Friends have little advice to offer except “girl you know boys will be boys”
Been here before, seen these signs and refuse to travel this same road
“It’s different now, trust me, I have changed, I promise.” All lies that I am told
Yet the idiot inside me still believes because I’m gullible and so in love
So I accept the blame for the position I’m in, no more complaining I’ve had enough
No more waiting around for my eyes to dry from the tears I cried all night
I will pick up the pieces and mend my heart cause I am going to be alright
No more listening to lies and fake alibis saying that you had to work late
Good women like me are hard to find and for your love I can no longer wait
No more wishing I had your love or your arms around me at night
No more feeling lonely, stressed and depressed from all of our senseless fights
No more sacrificing and accepting less just to hold on to you
And despite my fears No more living here, I found a house on Park Avenue
I know my worth, I know who I am, I know I deserve to be happy
So I am leaving you to start a new life and this time I’ll focus on me
I may shed a tear for each and every year I wasted dealing with you
But with each passing day I will smile and say “I’m stronger and I will make it through”
Through the tears, through the hurt, through the lies and deceit
I will rise ‘cause no weapon shall prosper against me
Through Christ I can do all things so I’ll keep my faith steady
Knowing one day God will lead me to my handsome prince to marry
I will stand, I will heal, and even learn to love and trust again when I am ready
He will love me passionately, kiss me softly and live to see me smile
He will adore me and not ignore me all because of my **** style
Until that time, I will happily spend my time loving myself first
I am proud to say that I have moved out now because I know my own self worth
WRITTEN BY LATOYA TAYLOR
