all my tuesday nights,
turn to wednesday mornings
before i even try to sleep.

every girl i ever dreamt,
seems to be settling
away from me.

each ounce of energy in my feet,
feels as though it's being traded
for suburban formaldehyde.

all-powerful god,
stolen away by rationale,
and the omniscient google.

every old friend is giving up
on me now,
i've restarted my life too many times.

each passing glance grows to a cold stare,
the americans are wondering
why i'm still fighting it.

all i ever wanted was a piece of pure love,
every cool kid talking up my name,
each word to ring with absolute truth,

but

all i'm getting is older,
everyone getting better at overlooking,
each cell traded for cancer, each dream gone sour.