I'd fade into the shadows if I could.
become a reflection that lingers on the waters, that flows along the earth.
to escape the loudness of the world,
and the restlessness of my mind.
to find solace,
to find peace,
to find quiet.
I'd run the distance of the world, if I could.
never stopping anywhere long enough to let my heart be overcome with despair, or love.
but I can't escape the thought,
that if I am just a shadow,
I'll miss out on the substance of being human.
the tangible guilt, sadness, happiness, and grief.
if I am a reflection, how will I touch the ones I love? how will i hold them close to my soul?
how will I bow on my knees and say a prayer to my God?
if I run,
if I escape,
would it be worth it?