Feel the sand
Feel the sun and all it has to give
Feel it wholly the sea so scary yet it makes me live
Free yet so grounded
Moving with ease
My struggles and burdens leave through my feet
From the soles of my feet my soul gets release
I am moving I am moving strong yet so free
This new found power I’ve realised is old
I have let loose all my shackles and strife I had to hold
The key is in that last line for me
“Had to”  
I’ve been me all along just trapped underneath
All my own thoughts and traumas that life sent to me
Yet it is I that persevered through them all to break free
If it wasn’t for she
I couldn’t have found me
And now I know as I always did that she holds the key
Not to my happiness nor anything that I lack
I am whole and complete
I am love fully detached
Yet it is her I want to hold near
Her I call dear
It is her it is her
It has always been her
Now I wait while we grow
Apart yet together
For our souls are only truly whole when we are together
I will make her my wife but not in the western sense
In a union so unconditional that our love never ends
In her womb my heart lies
In her womb my souls eyes
And hers will create such beautiful beings
For the universe and our higher selves
Have made this so destined
For now we are apart yet again I say together
For individually we move through the very same processes
And for now that must be
Left alone so we can see
That together we are better and who we want to be
Our families will be brought together again
Yet this time with no pain, no strain
Just love, acceptance, healing and gain
Our successes we will hold dear but share with the world
I love you so deeply
Wholeheartedly and unconditional
But I understand that right now it’s not right for you to be with me
Nor I with you
And that is more than okay
But when we get together we will be free from this heartache
We will make all this right
And take these struggles in our stride
For together we are stronger
Together we are forever
Thank you for making me the man I am
I do not discredit myself or my plans
Or the traumas and strife that I alone had to endure
But it is you who showed me the way through my fears
It is you who can light up the darkest of days
It is you who smiles so freely my soul sways
Your eyes touch mine and I can feel the suns rays
And instead of burning or blinding
They open my way
They show me the path
Whether it’s through , under or over
It is you it is you
Who shows me it’s okay…..