I am sick because of you both
Every particulate matter in my body
Every day of my life
I will blame you both
For my unending sadness

And because I have some heart
Some to keep me alive
Some to care for the gift of life
I can never tell you how I feel
But I blame your ignorance and cruelty

And also because
I have some spirit in me
I did not and do not want to die yet
Even if I hate myself
More than I have come to despise you

I regret at my nomadic life
Why did I leave myself to escape you?
Because after all the pain and fire
It feels like you never left
As I keep trying to crawl away

There is no air to breath
There is no help in sight
There no hope rope to grab
I await my courage
To let me go