When you are on the edge of a cliff, you can only see the scenery. It is beautiful. It is the best.
When you are on the edge of a cliff, you'll get scared of height. Or get scared of things that used to won't bother you at all.
When you are on the edge of a cliff, maybe it will be the first time you think about moving backward. Because there is no other choice.
But when you finally take the leap, you won't recognize any of those. Not even your face that might screaming out loud.
But you will see things you wouldn't expect. Like your life flashing in front of your eyes. Or your happiness that used to conquer you.
Until some moment you'll realize that it was too late. It will absolutely fine if you took a step back, or maybe a couple of steps more.
You'll realize that the scenery is not as good as your life that flash.
You'll realize that the clock is ticking so fast you felt it slowing down.
You'll realize, that your life might be better if you didn't jump. You'll realize, that the leap not only will take the sadness away. But also the joy that come along
Every sip of cheap wine you bought every now and then. Every deep inhale of your favourite cigar. Every tipsy 2 a.m. conversation. All gone.
The clock is ticking too fast before you realize, That it is too late.
Until you find out, That the scenery is not as good as before you take that leap.
I once wrote this to my friend that diagnosed with BPD. She loves it, she gets back on her feet now.