I want you to listen to me
You hear me
But you don't listen
I call and shout for you to notice me
You tell me
"Quiet down"
Listen to me.
I want you to run your fingers through my hair
Like running your hands through the crystal ocean water
I want you to call me
"Mine"
I want to be
Yours
I want you to notice me
Only me
I am selfish
That is who I am
That is what I've become
I ate all the love and turn
Jealous.
J
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A
L
O
U
S
What's wrong? They won't notice you?
What can you do about it?
Nothing!
Never!
Ever!
No!
I want you to want me
I want you to hate everyone else
But me
That's too much to ask I know.
I give you everything.
Gifts
Hugs
Care
Kisses
Reassurance
My body
My mental health
And what do you give me?
Worry.
That you have eyes
For another
They are perfect.
Stunning.
I am ashamed
I am fat
I am skinny
I am mean
I am kind
I am mature
I am immature
I am ugly
I am pretty
I need help
No
You
Don't.
Go **** yourself everyone says
That's just life everyone says
That's why I rather be dead
I try
So hard
No one knows
It's too much for me
I can't do it I can't.
I try so hard
But know one sees
I hate you.
Please love me.