I wish I was someone else
With enough sense to wish
You would've sent me away
So I could morph into a stranger's bloodline like a London city light.

I see myself in everyone who gives me kindness;
I doubt it's normal to wonder if I'm theirs but I do
In not finding the same kindness in you.

I sit in the wake of the plans
Vowing not to drink but doing it anyway, one urge from you
And I'm right back where I was before I met my friends

Who tell me I'm worth more
Than every streetlight
That makes the world so radiant
In the dead of December
Where it takes the cold ***** in me to remember

I need to be brave
And fun myself into running into the girl you could've been
The girl you could've been if you hadn't have had me.