I have this crippling
need
to prefect everything
to be flawless in the eyes of
others
and the smoke and mirrors work
on everyone else
but myself
because I see every. *******. Thing.
I obsess
obsess
obsess
until I crack and bleed
until my heart is raw
and no amount of sleep
can get rid of this heavy feeling
of failure
failure
failure
and I know everyone is looking
and pointing out
every single
flaw
flaw
flaw
I will cave into myself
and fall away
away
away
I will fall
into my
brain.