If we can find the proper restraints, i give the sign: hold me down and crack my ribs, tear out the disease in me, use a microscope (telescope ?) to find my heart, insert conscience 'A' into slot 'B'. Peel back my skin and cover what's left in stained velour, complete what i have become, scarred, barren, torn asunder. i tore the flesh from my bones for me, nothing more, trying to destroy eternity, separating molecules, better living through chemistry (FOCUS) There is a seed inside us all. What will it become, what will it consume? (FOCUSFOCUSFOCUS) i feel the disconnect and cry stretching wounded arms across a chasm of my own design. i would tear myself apart for you, but not for me.
ah, to be young and in love and married...what the **** was i thinking? i guess my life at that point was just a series of 'it seemed like a good idea at the time' moments all strung together...but then again, isn't that how it is for most of us?