I haven't always been a good person
or atleast in my own opinion
It was unintentional
but when you're a young man
you may do things you regret in retrospect

I met a sweet innocent girl when I was 26
She had bright blue eyes and a southern draw like me
And my biggest regret
is that I think..
I made myself believe she was more than she was
and honestly, at that point in my life
she could have been any other girl that smiled at me
that let me come home with her
that let me kiss her
that told me she liked me
that's what I regret
only being with someone because she liked me and not being reciprocated on my end

I despise that version of me
I lied to her not knowing I was doing so
Me and my brain have been fighting my whole life
and this is when I noticed it
I broke that girls heart because I was too naive to my brain
I didn't know that it could turn on me
causing heart break to someone else
But as long as I'm satisfied then nothing is wrong
But it's all wrong
I believe now, that any harm done is a waste of time
and we don't have a lot of time
I promised myself
I will no longer waste it