i have the prettiest handwriting but my mother hates it as a professor, she says, it is important for me to be able to read it when she says that were both quietly seated i object, a thing that i chose to do best i almost went to law school, but failed the entry test at the time my grandma was sad that's what she chose to do best she'd sigh and put her hand on her heavy chest but i say mom mommmmm listen it's not about reading it's more about feeling feeling the shape of the word it's neurolinguistics, she smears a bread full of curd why are you surprised that i know this term it's like all i do is try and to learn my page is like the sea and the words are like boats with the sails it's about the swirls and the whirls of the meandering tails of the g's and the y's and all the letters have bonds to each other, unbreakable ties my greek looking e's and fictional t's my a is a bow my b has a toe even the capitals sometimes appear to be low like my head on the way to the train that likely takes me home right after rush hour when the overtime workers are hungry and dead longing all day for their ikea bed listening to educational talk i never liked people who enjoy it, to mock and me, i listen to indie with deep breaths in the mic and finally learn to sing how i like cause apparently my notes are too long my voice is too loud and the melodyβs lost in the scattered train sound i don't like it but its there like a dog to be walked we sat at the table at 8 and we talked the wiener dog with coffee like fur the thing it did best is listen to her i can change anything but i wonβt change my Rs i hear them approaching, the lit subway cars