Theres a hole in my head
The numbing agent fills it up with you
It reminds me of my dreams again and makes me feel blue
And my eyes are now puffy like a ******* balloon
And my week of good progress has been ruined
I miss you terribly
Is what my father always said to me
I never understood it until you were standing there in front of me
Because now I know the pain of missing something I never had
So dont you dare say another word and make me feel bad
For thinking you and I were similar and swelling my deflated heart up to be glad
Nothing can fix me
Not even you who fooled me
Into thinking that fig tree ever held a chance
For telling me its safe to sit down while you sawed off the branch
And I hate that I said im sorry
You thought it was just funny
That I was concerned
That I could be aware someone else was hurt
Dont go smiling at me because i wont realize its pity
Im far too naive
So ends this one reprieve