Mom was dozing off in her sofa with the tv still on
until she got up and went back to her bed
my dad was snoring on the living room couch
until his body rolled over in a slow motion
but he still continued to sleep on the rug
my sister was in her room
with her tablet taking away her attention
her door was shut that night
if you wondered where I was
I wasn’t in my room staring at the ceiling
I was back to where it all started
the bathroom floor
if you were to ask me why I was in there
I would probably just shrug my shoulders
the cold smooth bathroom tiles
always welcomed me gracefully
usually during this type of event
my brain would turn off and on rapidly
but I would let it go on for a while
for a while I thought my day was gonna go well but I was so naive
now I’m back to the beginning
my eyes started to water up
but I tried to hold myself down
the last thing I would to do is wake up anyone
my body was sat on the floor with my back up against the wall
trying to take deep breaths
but that was not making my situation any better
so my eyes gave up on me
and my weeps started to reveal themselves onto my face
the tiles on the floor catches every tear drop
I put my hands on my mouth to silence myself
my brain was not in my favor anymore
soon words started to pile up in my mind
like questions of my existence
the reminders of all the mistakes I done
or the severe urge to puke out my sorrows
this went on for a few hours
until I got up from the bathroom floor
washed my face
off the lights
and went straight to bed
shutting my brain off for tomorrow