Why is it so hard to love those who love me now
I was hurt and i stuck with me
Many memories i dont understand
So many blank spaces in my past
I want to be able to love them to
Nothing helps
Not therapy not crying nothing is helping
I feel as though i'm drowning in the place they call home
Not my home just a place i have no voice, no choice
Feeling like all i can do is just lay in my bed
Never wanting to leave the cozy little place
Its the only place i feel safe
Except the thoughts that go through my head start to get to me
I push people away
It ***** when they think i hate them
I don't but i don't love them either
Its a mix of things i don't understand