Im scared that i won't last
Im scared that i won't last in life
That i'm too weak to spend a few more years in bright light
Im only 17 but day by day the darkness consumes me
Im afraid im just built weak
Do I really have it in me?
I mock the know it alls
As the jealousy runs out of me
Like a cut deep
I pretend to consider their curiosity stupidity
As i wonder why all i have left is a full stop in me
Those gold medals i received as a kid reflect back on me
But all im is blind consuming it all whole in me
All i do is try and try and try
But i'm just a nobody
With average grades will I just live an average life?
Why do i have to be 17
Why can't i be 5 with dreams and aspirations in her eyes
Gliding away like a summer tide
That one gifted child
Where have you gone my dear
I miss you and I need you.