i drink coffee
when the moon is high
and smoke cigarettes
way before dawn
i drink too much
never enough
and love too much, too many
all the time
and everything i do will one day **** me
there will not be enough space
on my tombstone
to write down every cause of death
and i will never live enough
and i will never be alive
never grow old
even when i'm eighty
with my knees and back forever aching
i will not have learned enough
to be anything more than young
and i will die forever young
unlearned, unwisened
decaying body
melting snow