Do I suffer?

Everything I do I do wrong
I cant even get help
I want to manifest my pain
just let someone see me

I hate that I could be an inconvenience
I hate that I could be a problem
I hate that I cause offense
But please see me

I need to be loud
I need to be heard
I need to be seen
please please see me

I'm sorry to ruin your day
Im hurting too
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I hate Myself
I might do it
I might finally show you

My last laugh

I will finally be remembered

You can't ignore this