I must admit, it hurts a lot to be left by the person you loved the most when everyone else left too. In such a fragile state, I feel like I'm obsessing about everything between us because you were the last person to leave me.

I'll never understand truly why, why you couldn't fight for me when I needed it the most, when my life was hanging by a thread, when I had no one else to confide in. It will always hurt me, as it happens so much, but our conversations, relationship and old friendship were truly the highlight of my days.. You were my favorite person to talk to.

Maybe eventually it will stop hurting. But even if not, even if you are better off without me, I hope you can be happy and find what you're looking for. Of course, it hurts that I'm not going to be a part of that. But I was only making it harder, wasn't I? I'm sorry for that. I really wanted you to be that support system for me, like I was for you, but I guess it was too difficult, my burdens are too heavy. So I hope it is easier now, I don't blame you, I don't hate you. You did what was best for yourself and that's not selfish, it's putting your well being first. Even though it hurts I can never wish you any harm. Please be ok.