I feel like a little kid again

Not really fitting in

Wondering why no one likes me

Not talking

Feeling invisible

Not having friends

I do have friends

But are they noticing

That I'm eight years old again?

That I feel like they are gonna leave me?

Like my only friend I had back then?

I'm just a hurt little kid again

Who's scared of the world and doesn't want

to go to school

because they will just end up zoning out

the entire day

But at the same time I'm older

I know more of the world

The world who is now even scarier

A world I don't want to stay in

But I have to

Everyone has to

I am a little kid again

But this time

I just want to disappear

Because I know

Growing up isn't gonna make everything better

So it's better to just

stop trying