Sometimes I wish I were pretty enough to turn heads. Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to achieve anything in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really cut out for marriage and motherhood. Sometimes I vow that I'm not going to eat at all for a long time or become bulimic so I can lose the disgustingness that is me. Then I forget and break my vow and it makes me appalled at myself. Sometimes I wish I had a better memory. Actually, I always do.