i go to school so i may have more opportunities in the future
but what they dont understand is that school is what is draining me

im draining myself away
for the promise of a future i may not live to see

working toward my future is actively killing me
the more i work the further my future seems

as my assignments pile up and weigh me down
i try to give everything i have
but as i give and give and give and give
and remain so desperately behind
i can’t help but wonder what the point of it all is

after all
how many times
can the desperate shots of my flare gun
be misinterpreted as fireworks
before i stop shooting?

how many times
can the hints i carefully lace into my casual remarks
not raise the questions i was hoping for
before i stop including them?

i go to school for my future
i’m sure it will be bright and brilliant and blinding

that is if school doesn’t take my future away first