To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me,
You where never the problem,
I was.
My heart was unable to comprehend the difference between you and lust.

So I struggled with God.
I could not bring myself to say that it was not lust or like.

So I hated you.

Yes you wronged me.
But I hated you.

You were in my life so I could learn from you.
But still, I hated you.

You were the sore representation of the area I fell short in,
the area which I need more help in.

So to the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, you are not just outer appearance you are also your dreams and ambitions, desires and future Godly nature.


To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, I hope you treat the women in your life with care and love.

I pray you do not hurt another girl's heart because I am not too sure if they know that they have a strong Father who will always be with them like I knew I did.

To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, please do not go through your life racing through fathers daughters.
Please succeed so your children can have a better life than you ever did.

To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, please walk to God so he can make you a better man than you can ever be.
Please love the lord your God "with all your heart and with all your strength and lean not on your own understanding."

To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, when you meet her, treat her with care, honour her and clothe her with respect.
When you wife her, do not let your eyes roam as you did in your immature youth.

To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, when you have children, let them know you will always listen and give them advice.

To the boy I allowed to have so much power over me, become the man who He wants you to be.