stop acting like emotions exist singularly in the one moment.

if they did; we’d be expressing that emotion for the first time each time we smiled or cried or felt hurt. we’d have no triggers; no memories of previous emotions.

emotions are like mercury in the body. they build up. the presence of them already within the body shapes the way the new emotions are felt and expressed.

betrayal after betrayal is like scurvy.

your body doesn’t really heal in the sense we think of; it covers up the scars with collagen. when you have scurvy, you don’t have enough vitamin a, and body stops making collagen.

and all the old wounds open up again, amongst your new ones