i want to sleep
because it's the closest i can be
to being dead
without leaving
all of my friends
alone.
but i can't sleep
scary thoughts
keeping me awake
telling me
i'm being watched.
morning
*****.
eye bags
the size of oranges
fingers
sore and slow at typing
eyelids
heavy
like boulders
legs
weak
and useless
but here i am
at school
needing sleep
and dreading the next day
knowing full well
it will be the same as today.