Being the best
the egoic thrill
leaves you with more
of your soul to ****.

I wish I could become
the darkness I feel
but the problem of the ego
is that it isn't real.

By being the best,
it allows me to thrive
but I am only the best
because I needed to survive.

I'm not really the best,
I tell myself lies
with grandiose fantasies
I create in my mind.

I become narcissistic,
I feel it in my brain
knowing to be realistic,
I can lose what I've gained.

The egoic pleasure
has roots that are sick
but it feels so good
to a psychopathic *****.

It's a society illusion
and it's not who I am,
but it's a part of who I became
when my psyche was ******.