I don’t know what to do,
cause I think I loved him
but I’m not sure it’s true
And now I stay up questioning my feelings
For the boy who I thought gave life meaning

And I don’t want to leave
But I think I might have to
Because this Christmas Eve
I’ve got two hearts in my chest, mine here again
So I’ll mourn him now, before I go and explain

I’ll scream ’til I need air
Tell him it’s me, truly it is,
That cross is mine to bear
I don’t want to leave, but I fear it’s for the best
Cause my love for him turned rotten like the rest

So I’ll gather my courage,
I know what I must do
There can’t be a marriage
Now don’t know what I feel, friendship or nothing
But it’s not the love I’m meant to have for him

I can’t break his heart
But keeping him kills mine
So I fear I must depart,
Because holding him rooted in the past
Is just not right when I feel nothing at last