should i be upset or happy?
it's been so long since i was proud of me
guess i won't know, and it's definitely not the first time
i've let myself down again, but i promise i did try
this feeling eats me up all the way inside
i don't know what will become of me, or if i'll make it out alive

i guess that's how it is now
my feet used to soar above ground
but my wings don't work the same anymore
i guess there's nothing else i can do
but drown my sorrows alone in my bedroom
hoping for a miracle to walk through the door

and i know i should accept it, but i don't want to
if they can do it, doesn't that mean i can too?
unless there's something wrong with me
maybe this isn't where i'm meant to be
i've come so far, isn't it too late to back out?
is this my turning point or the part where i break down?
is this just for today, or is it the rest of my life?
if it is, isn't there something i can do to survive?

they don't know that i feel like dying
they don't know about the nights i spent crying
and if one day, i'm actually gone
take this as a lesson to learn from