I never realized the pain behind the words that say they wished to sleep only to see you in their dreams or I am excited to go to sleep, cause you come to me in my dreams. Now that I have seen you a couple of times in my sleep, I am eager to see you more. Believe it or not, I couldn't face you even in my dreams and I desperately tried to wake up and move when you called me "love". I didn't turn and see your face but your voice, gods that voice, it brought back all the memories. I ******* up and hurt you and let you go, I wanted a life with no regrets and the day that I pushed you away that's when my life filled with regrets started. When I look back I see that point as the time when everything started going downhill. It's been 2 years now and I don't talk to you like I used to, I didn't see you in 2 years, I didn't talk to you in 2 years. I don't have your photos, I don't have our photo. I made the biggest mistake of my life and I am paying for it. I am so ashamed I can't even face you in my dreams. Do you know how pathetic it is to be happy for days after seeing the person you love in a dream hugging another girl, a girl whom he probably loved now, but you don't care about that cause you're happy you got to see him in your dream and you accidentally touched him. I know how pathetic that is but I don't care cause I got to see you. I want to see you again, I want to hear your voice again, I want you to call me "love" again, I want you to hug me again, I want you to kiss me again, even if it's in a dream. I love you. I'm sorry.