to be, or not to be. the question that plagued the noble Hamlet, so plagues me now. I care not for the for the art with which he speaks, yet his core idea rings true. laying myself to rest, sleeping, perchance to dream. and in that dream of death, i might escape the nightmare of life. this seems the favourable route. but... "seeming" is the key. is it merely a shining illusion, this relief? for in the passing of life by one's own hand, he only passes his griefs to loved ones. is my relief worth the pain it would cause?