You deserved more than I gave you
You are more than the broken pieces which I left you to pick up on your own
I made you feel like you weren't enough
When all this time, you were more than anyone I have ever known

I treated your flaws as a shame
Your love I took for granted and broke all my promises
You were really not to blame for why we departed
It was my demons that tore us apart
Now I live with shame.

I made you think that I wanted someone heartless to love me
Because that is the only time I could feel love, when I was chasing it endlessly
Yet there you were gentle and nurturing to me all on your own
When all I ever did was make you feel like my love was something you had to work harder to earn

I am sorry you had to consume my toxic traits
I am sorry I left you depleted and wanting to escape
I am sorry you now have to heal from me
I am sorry I wasn't the person you wanted me to be.

Sorry seems to be overused at this point
But I hope one day I can be that girl you always raving about
Free of all her demons that let her miss out
On one of the best persons she could have ever found, without a doubt.